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*groan.
i have no idea whats happenin' to my life. tak skola tak keje.
and i have no idea what im bloggin about anymore.
guess i really am 17 - without a purpose or direction.
so far, the week hasnt been anything like how i have planned fr it to be.
nothing goes my way!
im feelin' so lost. bingit sendiri pun ade.
thought things were gettin' way better fr me but obviously it just gt worse.
my temper were never this bad and so were my mood swings.
kalahkan pompan menopause siak.
lil things annoy me so bad.
and the no 1 thing that i cant stand no more is...
boys.
siolll la irrits kape. -_-



SK (in this fucking hilarious phone convo we had recently) :
"U know bby.. in sociology class kan, they taught us that love nvr existed at all. they say that love nvr really wujud time ancient2 dulu la. cos they believe love happens when people have free time. for example, cavemen nvr felt love cos they were always busy hunting food, finding shelter & yada yada. So, its ok la if you really2 get pissed off with boys hittin on you fr now. it really is. because you see ... Kirekan, you are like the cavemen ! youre so busy thinking of bigger problems that love mcm cannot develop in you ah. kan?? isit ?? "



rofl. what a cute explanation kan! (:
no idea how true are the things they teach in her sociology class, though.





x


havent been updating cos nothing is going on in my life.
if my life is a pail of water , there would be lots and lots of baby mozzies breeding alrdy.
haha.






i have annoying eyebrows that i swear arent proportionate to each other.
its like i had to cover half of my face, snap a pic of my right eyebrow & compare it to the pic of the left one.
then i realised one is higher than the other.
lol - temporary insanity.
i wanna grow it out and pluck them nicely again.
guess i wont go out fr some time till its all done.







upon further thinking ... NAH !! CANT BEAR STAYIN' HOME! hee.





p/s : date me out next week, anyone? ;D




x




"nury.. 

i dont want u to feel bad or be sad anymore.
i dont wanna hold u captive and be restrained.change, i want. change, i had hoped for. outlook is not what i really want. it lies within u.
truth is, losing u again is something i couldnt bear.
but wth am i doing? i'm letting u go.. yet again.
if it's destined that i'd only get to admire you and love you from afar, I'm contented.
As long as you are happy with whoever you chose to be with.. and even if it means that its gonna be me without you.
love, you're more than what u think u are.
be happy.

adam. "





i wont type much about this.
my head's all muddled. i dont want to be in a situation where i have to choose between two men.
i have a boyfriend, and that's that.
never cheated and itll stay that way. i'm sorry Adam.












sorry , my dearest mother.
sorry for not being the kind of daughter you want me to be.
sorry cos each time you see my face, it feels as if im provoking you.


are you sorry that i was even born?








x





hmm sial ah.



















I never thought I could love anyone but myself.
Now I know I can't love anyone but you.
You make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.
























I wrote This for someone. ):







tgk la amik hp aku amik gambar sendiri.






Happppyy Birthday Adryan (5dayslate , sry) !
-No Pictures-
Jiejie upload next week okay?




Kelly sayang, Be happy alright.
Time to take a breather, sayang.
For now, you can pretend that I'm a man.
& babe, I guarantee my banana is only for you. forever la sia!



Feel better soon ! i laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap you!




This poem is dedicated to myself and anyone else who is brokenhearted / rejected / dumped.

Time To Move On

Wishing you felt the same way,
Having to carry on each day,
Trying to accept your change of heart,
I never knew you'd tear mine apart,
I could satisfy your needs,
And help you reach your goals and dreams,
But just because I want us together,
Doesn’t mean ill wait forever,
I want you boy so very bad,
You'll be the love I never had,
I believe that we are meant to be,
But obviously you cannot see,
So I must maintain my pain and simply move on,
And face the fact that your feelings are gone















P/S : goodbye







Forget about it.
Forget us,
I'm so fkg tired figurin' you out.Moving on.
Have fun.





For the first time, i watched 'kudakepang' kinda thing today. this thingy called menurun?? 0.0
(ya kelly, i will tell you what it is later)
I macam a noob watching it, with my jaws wide open. (swallowed a fly and 1293782 germs while i was at it)
one thing i must say about this 'menurun' thing, it is hella scary. i dont wanna watch it ever again.






xx





such trash attitude.
hey i don't owe you anything.
and you know what? i don't need to redeem myself any further.
you do not deserve the nice treatment that have been given to you.
i guess its time you feel some sense of loss, ya?


so , suck it yourself.
i dare defy you.





p/s: you do good to get good.










Although some things(& people) in life kept letting me down- over and over again even as I am typing this, there's also some who never fail to make it all better.
For this, I know that I am blessed to have a friend like you.
I love you Beeps. Wholeheartedly.








wow broke up mcm in a blink of an eye. wonderful!


The chill in my veins
Relieves me from pain
Again & again
I lose all control
You're taking your toll
And I'm no longer sane

Don't be afraid
The love that I show is the love that you made
So don't be afraid
Cos you're in control
& I'm just your slave.



why b?






Haaaaaaapppppyyyyyy Nehneh-ing, I love ya .
You're one person I totally dig mannnn~











its amazing how much things can change within 24hours.
losing many but in order to have that ONE (neh, dont laugh).
i really don't wanna go through it again. *insaf
met him ~ less annoying more loving. haha.
omg i syg you plenty b!












question of the day: why can't one be everyone's friend ey?




this is from my bestfriend!

Dear neh neh,

I really miss you.
You have a nice set of boobs ha ha.
You make me laugh a lot.
You should learn how to save up.
Someday I will fly to the stars and bring one back for you.
You + me = nehnehzxz foreberz.
If I see you now I'd scream and tell you about the number of meals I ate today.
I want to make a CUTE BOYS ONLY sign for you for you.
I would build a perfect man who'd take care of you just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be Dance by Lady Gaga.
We could talk about everything together some day under the stars.

Love, Kelly.
(P.S. I ate 7 whole meals today.)

NURY NU BEL NEHNEHPOK ♥ KELLY TAN QN NEHNEHPOK.









♥ 




I'm crushed.
My feelings were true , just so you know.
Self-explanatory.











Ouh Neh! Thanks fr the post , it is so adorable.
Youre awesome .
I lubbbbb you girl! It was greeeeeaaaaat seeing you.


As these endless thoughts drip from my soul. .
Every single word from you or every memory of you will never melt & burn . .
Whenever your eyes spills out tears of life's tragedies, do come back..
Becoz never forget that your smile composes a meaningful story to others . .







Your highness left her handphone today in the bus.
She arrived late.
But, this wonderful bf of hers waited patiently.
Youre the best baby!
Thanks for helping me keep fit (and tearing my ass , UGH ) with the cycling tonight.
This is my fave pic of you today (youre welcome). you look like cinabeng bb!
KELLY , YES OR NO ? HAHAHA.




he showed me his phone tadi and all over his phone is... MY FACE! heheheheh xoxo lubs you leon!





Met my Leon today :D

I'm sorry I didn't join in the ice skating fun , scared lah b !
But I'll do it some other time !
& and NO, youre not boring.
Thanks for the making my day baby! (L)




See you on Sunday okay ! :D




I didn't travel to Johor today .
& You dont wanna know why .
but, I will tell you anyways . 8)
IT'S COS I FORGOT TO BRING MY PASSPORT WITH ME !
Dumb enough ?
Makcik Siti said . " Argh ! Sayang, I'm being honest here. You are such an idiot."
Sorry la yang tak idiot, heh.

So, off I went to Makcik Siti Vogue Sexxxy Mama's sexy crib.
Being the fickle pickle cheeseburger that she is,
she tooookkk sooooo long to change before we can head to town together.
Amakkkk ahgerl.
I'm happy cos she's Happy (capital H) that her boobs got bigger cos she grew chubbier.
GAGAGA, CUBIT BARU TAWU ! Go on, Spot her boobies !



Ahhh yaaaa , I bought a brand new hair straightener at Wisma.
MAHAL EH , $130 !
But it was discounted from like 200plus. Staff discount !
The pretty lady gave it to me since tomorrow is gonna be her last day workin. I hope god leaves a chocolate under her pillow tonight as a reward for her kind and selfless gesture.
Tomorrow I'm gonna try the straightening iron (which is actually ceramic but nobody calls it straightening ceramic, duh!) and type a review about it ! 8)
YOU'RE EXCITED TO READ IT RIGHTTTTT ! Me too ! hahahaha!




Hayden means Nothing matters more.


I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distanceI wouldn't want to go messing anything upSo tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far




im feeling fuck lonely.
cos it seems like everyone's not layaning me.
what the hell man. im not used to this, at all.

kar·ma

Hinduism & Buddhism The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny. Fate; destiny. Informal A distinctive aura, atmosphere, or feeling: There's bad karma around the house today.

anyhoos, do you believe in karma kicking you right up your ass just cos you ever shit at someone else?