What a dick.

2009-10-04T13:02:00.001+08:00

MOVED BACK TO LIVEJOURNAL.

http://www.nwie.livejournal.com

thats what single girls do~

2009-10-01T15:55:00.002+08:00

im ready for something new.
you wanna give it to me?

Germs.

2009-09-05T01:18:00.001+08:00

PORK ENEMY

Menggatal dgn kekasih lame

2009-09-04T00:39:00.002+08:00

Haha still as cheeky as before.
Oh gosh Leon, I tell your girlfriend then you know.

ohkay so?

2009-08-30T14:13:00.016+08:00

thought i could meet ahkid today.
mhmmmmmm- not ):
maka, sepilah hidupku.

damn .
i miss SK beeps , kel neh , ahmad bala , iqbal bala ,
aip hayden , kal hensem , adam & nana notty (hehe).
miss em so fucking much. sigh~
mcm forever sey da tak jumpe
if only i have ALL the time in this world.
i need my friends more than ever right now ):

keseorangan, so the tak perlu

i did try for us.

2009-08-27T21:59:00.004+08:00

baby you're never gonna acknowledge your mistakes.
i rest my case.

saya anak lily.

2009-08-26T04:17:00.005+08:00

Mom said its time for me to start finding a proper partner-

i miss being mummy's one & only baby girl ):

#2 on 26th

2009-08-25T22:19:00.016+08:00

♥ Baby ♥

you couldnt care less.
But, I'm still smiling for our 2nd taw.

SEXIST.

2009-08-23T12:01:00.003+08:00

first, you abruptly cut off our contact part nga syiokkszx dating.
da tu you da mataer ngan sape2 , break.
then ewah2 my friend, you sardine je return to me.
worse, you expect me to believe your fking blatant lies & dumbfcuk excuses, nt even good enough to fool a worm.
im not born yesterday my dear.
tu takpe taw. i paham, and i didnt want to embarass you further. so .. ?
i forgave you. besides, youre nt the only one available for me.
abey now - 3 months later, member wna shit me again?
hahahaha try harder. you damn pundek merek.
nak shit me pon jangan pakai pompan umor da tue2 nye bley? eee.
and btw, kau da takya nak tag tag my tagboard luh k buaya(:

look this is cute :

sadly, i dont feel you anymore

2009-08-19T20:58:00.014+08:00

"And it goes fast, you think of the past.
Suddenly everything has changed."

love hurts but sometimes its a good hurt.

2009-08-18T22:26:00.006+08:00

i waited the whole fckg day.
bloody hell.
do i haf to keep waiting?!
am i a waitress ?! (lmao)

i fought my tears like a fucker but you gave no fuck

2009-08-17T21:56:00.014+08:00

why? why do we turn out this way?

get over it, youre his past. and youre still a budak hingus, taik , kentot. arrrrr!

konek bodoh.

2009-08-02T05:41:00.005+08:00

"I want your promises.
I don't care if they are lies."

whoa.
like seriously?

2009-08-02T02:27:00.009+08:00

*
"Drunk Boys Cheat Girls"
alep mcm kontol eh kau.

mood: mcm taikszx. taik pun lgy baek
bby is drunk & not texting me in proper sentences D:<

2009-07-31T21:51:00.008+08:00

the influence of alcohol made you the sweetest boy i know.

but it aint gonna last.

2009-07-30T00:00:00.003+08:00

babi kite saket.

Singapore is Too Fuckin Small.
Benci sey.
Everyone's like connected to everyone.
Bad Reputation never goes unseen for long & bastard kias like me bley takecare la eh.

watodo la kan?

2009-07-26T05:57:00.006+08:00

sial la. 6am. 3rd entry.
a close friend told me - i still gotta try & save this.
but when do i stop?

#1 on 26

2009-07-26T04:51:00.004+08:00

i guess i know the answer:
age matters.

oh f.

#1 on 26

2009-07-26T04:08:00.004+08:00

If I am given only 3 words to say to you,
it would be..

"You're not sorry."

#1 on 26

2009-07-16T16:47:00.001+08:00

you sure?

make up ur mind asshole.

2009-07-12T03:59:00.003+08:00

im feelin new.
and im so ready fo love.
<3

ku mempunyai keinginan untuk merasakan cinta yg seperti dahulu kala.

2009-06-22T17:47:00.006+08:00

i was in a rather funny foul-good-foul-good mood the past few days (yada yada! whats new, right ?).
spent my weekend over at bedok w adek .
the lil bro of mine whom i have long described as 'very annoying and still very very immature', is actually ... not that bad after all sey.
i mean, yes he issssss faaaaaarking irritating and stupid but still, he is ... growing , in every sense of the word.
hes more streetsmart than i have ever given him credit for and he is pretty cool to hangout with.
he compromises with me more now and is learning to talk like budak da mula nak naek, which is really.... cool? (limited vocabulary ar)
but still .... the coolest (limited vocabulary, again) shit of all is the fact that im still able to tell him the most LAMEMOMO jokes ever created, and he'd laugh. all for about an hour when other people would haf just gimme that "mate sepet face" a.k.a mister -.-
wow. to think that i actually used to harbour thoughts of killing him siuuul. ('-')v

ok whatever la ehh pasal my adek.
i love stayin over at bedok rather than woodlands.
and boy, do i wish to stay here forever.
lagi2 ade orang orang tertentu yang tinggal berdekatan. (ehem ehem)
it feels as if im on a holiday with my dream guy for 7days 190 nights.
okay, BEDEK !!
not THAT shiok la actually. just kidding.
org woodlands (a.k.a mak ) have been so unresaonable with me nowadays that i have had a little big trouble figuring her out. sighs.
SOOOO anw thats it.
so obvious tt im blogging cos im bored , kan ?
rofl.

xoxo

p/s: rindu banget padamu keithy boyyyy ! & thanks alot fr those who maseh setie membace blog i dan sudi tag skali! who the hell is abg john anyways?

2009-06-20T16:12:00.005+08:00

afad:
" aiyoyo, ape da jadi ngan u nie! kate youre a believer of 'all things happens fr a reason'..? den mcm mane ley fikir smp gini skali? baru 2 weeks i tak see you den you da gini mcm pe.."

*groan.
i have no idea whats happenin' to me either.
and i have no idea what im bloggin about anymore.
guess i really am 17 - without a purpose or direction.
so far, the week hasnt been anything like how i have planned fr it to be.
nothing goes my way!
im feelin' so lost. bingit sendiri pun ade.
thought things were gettin' way better fr me but obviously it just gt worse.
my temper were never this bad and so were my mood swings.
kalahkan pompan menopause siak.
lil things annoy me so bad.
and the no 1 thing that i cant stand no more is...
boys yang trying to manja2 ngan me.
siolll la! wrong timing la!

SK (in this fucking hilarious phone convo we had recently) :
"U know bby.. in sociology class kan, they taught us that love nvr existed at all. they say that love nvr really wujud time ancient2 dulu la. cos they believe love happens when people have free time. for example, cavemen nvr felt love cos they were always busy hunting food, finding shelter & yada yada. So, its ok la if you really2 get pissed off with boys hittin on you fr now. it really is. because you see ... Kirekan, you are like the cavemen ! youre so busy thinking of bigger problems that love mcm cannot develop in you ah. kan?? isit ?? "

rofl. what a cute explanation kan! (:
no idea how true are the things they teach in her sociology class, though.

x

2009-06-11T21:21:00.004+08:00

havent been updating cos nothing is going on in my life.
if my life is a pail of water , there would be lots and lots of baby mozzies breeding alr la dey.
haha.
anyhoos, to those who kept on pestering me to delete this blog of mine, guess what?

IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN , LOSAAAAAHS ! *shows the L sign to Suar*

next week ive gt lotsa plans .
so i'll be actively updating this space aight ! ;D

xoxo

2009-06-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

kecoh ah lu boy.
nak kenal2 takmo sampai msg mak aku la gondol !!
anw i found 50 bucks today.
believe it or not. ^^

p/s: happy belated birthday suar.
ahaha. nie aku da update! happy ?

2009-05-20T17:04:00.003+08:00

my hair is officially shorter now , HANCUR .
im having migraines more often than ever .
blogging is totally useless .
i might as well just close this blog .

N u B e l ☮ da rilek HAHA

if i were a lesbian, i'd make her my girlfriend.

2009-05-17T21:18:00.002+08:00

i have annoying eyebrows that i swear arent proportionate to each other.
its like i had to cover half of my face, snap a pic of my right eyebrow & compare it to the pic of the left one.
then i realised one is higher than the other.
lol - temporary insanity.
i wanna grow it out and pluck them nicely again.
guess i wont go out fr some time till its all done.

upon further thinking ... NAH !! CANT BEAR STAYIN' HOME! hee.

p/s : date me out next week, anyone? ;D

x

2009-05-16T00:59:00.007+08:00

my thighs are getting fatter like a babi!
how the hell am i gonna wear my lil shorts?!
this is utterly depressing, i swear!
this is more depressing than having only 10 cents in my purse.
this is more depressing than losing my handphone.
this is more depressing than breaking up.
this is more depressing than not being able to find my SallyHansen *nudge kelly*

aarrrrrarararararrrrrrr.
i need help. i havent really experienced this before!
sure i wanna exercise but i just cant start.
sure i wanna diet but i just looooovvveee food.
Oghhh my GAWWWDDD fooooodddd is better than sex lol

i am such a sad soul. sigh.
you see- when you have no school , you get fat.
so, pls dont stop schooling ppl.

p/s : if anyone can help me in my mission to lose my thigh fats, please contact me.

what an asshole. he says im fat. ok la, you fatter can?!!
x

2009-05-14T02:44:00.008+08:00

"nury..
i dont want u to feel bad or be sad anymore.
i dont wanna hold u captive and be restrained.
change, i want. change, i hope. outlook is not what i really want.
it lies within u.
truth is, losing u again is something i couldnt bear.
so i'm letting u go.. be free.
if it's destined that i'd only get to admire you and love you, I'm contented.
As long as you are happy.
even if it means that its only gonna be me.
you're more than what u think u are.
be happy "

i wont type much about this.
my head's all muddled.
you meant alot to me.
you changed my life - i hope you know that.
youre the best guy ive ever been with, even though you might feel like im always not giving you a chance.
sorry that it all had to end up this way,
and it was all my fault. always was.
adam .. thanks alot fr everythin you have done fr me and i love you too , even if i nv showed it as well as you.
yes, i agree with you. you are only a boy who has ever loved me.
& ... the first one who showed me whats love.

this is not the end, i've decided.

x

2009-05-12T23:01:00.006+08:00

sorry , my dearest mother.
sorry that i made you hate me so much.
sorry that my character is just like my dad.
sorry for not being the kind of daughter you want me to be.
sorry cos each time you see my face, it feels as if im provoking you.

sorry that i was even born.
fuck

x

haha no. its fine, really.
im gonna make you proud one day.
its gonna be in your face.
ily oh mother even if you can be soooo mean aight.

2009-05-11T19:23:00.003+08:00

im moving on to better things.
be happy keith.
but stop playin ard.
kau tau aku peduli sgt ngan kau kan. (:
sorry fr what i said.
but you were harsh too.
oh well, luv ya matrep. haha

p/s : hate is a kin to love.

2009-05-11T18:40:00.003+08:00

Get that?

p/s: you chose the wrong girl. i didnt choose her for you. why get mad at me? lol seriously keith. kau fikir betol2 , jgn maen hembos.

2009-05-10T23:35:00.005+08:00

Baby, you're so unusual.
Didn't anyone tell you you're supposed to..
Break my heart, I expect you to...
So why haven't you?

no , thats no one in particular.
oh well.
welcome back, nury 8)

note to self: gotta start smth new soon. how the hell did i get so fkg borin' ....

2009-05-06T00:19:00.001+08:00

Going on a holiday. Bye!

"holiday".
Dont check out my blog fr now cus I wont be updating anytime soon-

2009-05-05T23:09:00.002+08:00

i can sense that im starting to fall deeper into this.

P/S : I have to see you. I can't wait.

2009-04-30T23:27:00.005+08:00

heee *giggles*
you like good girls?
awesome.
cos .. im one. Hahahahahah!

bored uhs. life without school sucks! serious shit.
meeting kelfel later today.
baby beeps on sunday,
keith on monday (kau kene belanja aku ehs hee)
boy's bbq on wednesday (get to see joel),
and faiii next friday.

i need money.
who is rich enough to be my boyfriend? huhu

$

2009-04-30T00:28:00.008+08:00

Nak buat taik, do it to yourself uh. Dont get the others involved in it.
Im sure you are pleased to know that your parents are gna be dragged into it.

rejoice uh!

2009-04-29T00:17:00.007+08:00

before anyone starts asking , this guy is my good friend .
Dont start fabricating stuff about it. *ESPECIALLY ALEP UHHH.. Blueks!

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO :

Mohamed Faizal

I miss You ok? Yelah 48 hours w/o talkin to you is verrrrrrrrrrry long eh ? Hahaha!
See - Since I da post "imy" besar besar mcm bapak I ,
den ... idk uh , anything uh lol .

× Nu Bel says:
aik ?!
blablabla ?!
[b][b]Ϝα¡¡¡ϜдLLѕd●ᾥи[/b] - [c=9] fα¡¡¡-jдt●h-Lαgy[/b][/c] says:
hahaha
joke2 jek
you
kalo btol2 rindu i
post besar2!
hahahaha
× Nu Bel says:
uh ?
OH
[b][b]Ϝα¡¡¡ϜдLLѕd●ᾥи[/b] - [c=9] fα¡¡¡-jдt●h-Lαgy[/b][/c] says:
-_-
× Nu Bel says:
eleh
beh da posT dapat ape??
gaahahha
[b][b]Ϝα¡¡¡ϜдLLѕd●ᾥи[/b] - [c=9] fα¡¡¡-jдt●h-Lαgy[/b][/c] says:
dpt org yg merindui dirimu tk terhenti2
hahaha
× Nu Bel says:
sape?
[b][b]Ϝα¡¡¡ϜдLLѕd●ᾥи[/b] - [c=9] fα¡¡¡-jдt●h-Lαgy[/b][/c] says:
your loyal fann
faiiifallsdown

ok lor ! heh .

p/s: had fun pluckin fiza's leg hair ytd ;D berbulu lu monkey heheh jk!

2009-04-28T00:17:00.004+08:00

Cant sleep.
Thinking abt the Swine Flu thingy (if you dont know wth is it, den u are a noob).
Found myself googling :

WHY ARE PIGS NOT HALAL.

Nicholas got so upset .
Sorry baby ahahhaha . Cant help it .
You guys should go google it too .
Seriously.
GO DO IT NOW .

oink - IS EVIL

2009-04-27T23:03:00.005+08:00

Texts exchanged btwn me & Fiza B -

Fiza : Nubel bby , sok jmp iii tak ? dunchu paitao me . Jom kite ber-JEANS besok !
Me : Hey (: yup . jmp lah . Huh?! haha . err? Jeans kape !
Fiza : Aiiiikkkks! Asal !! UUUU, bleyyy laaaa uuuu
Me : Serious pah ? Da lame aku tak pkai jeans hmmm .
Fiza : Aku tau la ! kau mane nak tutup aurat .. sexy seksaaaa! ISHHHHKs ! Sooooo bby ? ;p
Me : Kau bilang aku dulu . asal kau nak sgt pakai jeans bsok . v fishy u know .
Fiza : Ummmmm ... Ummmmm ... ok lor . actuallieee . aku malas nak shave uhhhx. Heeee
Me : Siol la kau . hahahahahhahaahahahahah ! da brp hari ni sampai nak kene pkai jeans !! omg hahahahahhaha .
Fiza : musibot uhhhhx kau . hehe . da 4 days knowww , very lazy uhh
Me : da mcm gorilla la nie !

whoa.

the troubles of being a girl.
you dont get away w being hairy .

2009-04-26T23:26:00.007+08:00

its sunday .
and ive been home the whole day .

the reason why i stayed home on this beaaaautiful day (& i think the next few days too)
is .... well , my nose is blue-black in colour.
i am so mad. you cannot imagine how mad i am right now.
mad- at my nose. at the guy who made it turn black.

izwan actually pinched my nose yesterday fr no apparent reason.
it got me soooo upset that i gave him shit treatment the whole time i was w him.
and he actually gt the cheek to text me " hey , dont be so sensitive la u. you are too sensitive."
Woah! yeah ,
try walkin ard outside w a black nose on a fair face then tell me if i am being too sensitive ah!
i'd rather walk ard w a black face and a black nose.
than a black nose and a fair face.
assssshuuul ah you.

i hate black noses.

p/s : single is starting to sound

like a bad word.

2009-04-25T00:10:00.006+08:00

Today , I barely had a good night's sleep.
Lucky me, Izwan accompanied me while I was all emotional. Thanks & cya tmr (:

So, what bothered me was Beeps - nt replying my texts / answerin my calls .
Pikiran you know ! ):
Keep calling and texting her , trying to figure out whether I have wronged her in any way .
I thought she was pissed w the fact that her old flame contacted me.
I got all teary eyed the whole freakin night.
Skali ..... she called me back aft skool to apologise and explain.
Haiyo ! Idk what to say luh about her .
She has become such a pig , sleeping early everday and abandoning me while she's at it.
and i worry my fuckin head off.

"Wah, ayaaang. Kite ni da mcm mataer tgh gaduh ahhhh. heheh. Sorrry." she said.
lol ? i love my gf.

&

Boo you Faii. Paitao i eh u niari. JUST KIDDING

&

(sorry people, let me vent my frustrations)
and.. you. Sick Loser 'Z'. such a freak. Get a life.
Since you SS hotstuff kan, then why bother abt me?
Seeing the way you keep going on and on abt me being such a "bitch" to you,
I assume .. you were rly affected by my actions eh ? Syg me kan kan ? Admit it ah!
HAHHAHAHA. ASSHOLE. You and that bull guy can SUCK IT.
ALL URE CAPABLE OF IS INFURIATING PPL .

Pardon me fr using such profanities.
Aw. Can't wait fr the weekends and the week ahead.

P/S: if i had a twin, she'll do all the shittin'

2009-04-21T22:40:00.002+08:00

I have never met anyone so eager to find out where I live (more like where's 847). (:
Kinda adorable you.

P/S: Sorry Joel. Tolong belajar membaca dalam Bahasa Melayu.

hehehe *smirks.

2009-04-21T02:17:00.005+08:00

rindu tu tetap rindu.
tapi, yang lepas memang sudah dilupakan.(:
i so wanna talk to you again, you know?
miss ya monkey face. haha.

anyways,
im awfully bored these days. whats w everyone being back in school and all.
rah, wished I had done smth abt my studies.
i feel more and more like a pig with each passing day. ("kesian si babi...", Alep said.)

I would like to apologise to most of my friends/kenalan - for cutting off our contact. (esp to those who kept asking if they have ever wronged me to deserve this.. )
Yup, it's sort of true - if some of ya'll heard frm whoever that I said I malas nak layan laki at this point of time.
I am sorry if that actually made me appear like some kinda bitch.
But, I have my reasons. It's not easy fr me too. Please forgive me k.
Take this as if I went overseas. Nanti I balek? Ha.

Yup, That's about it. I am aware that you guys do visit my blog to somehow get a clue on why I'm 'avoiding' you, esp you Aliff. I know. So here's my once-and-for-all explanation. To think abt it, its nt much and its somewhat 'insufficient'. But, Idk how else to say it.
Take care, i mintak maaf byk2.

):

2009-04-14T02:34:00.004+08:00

I am fine.
I'm doing quite well, you know.
And yeahp, Joel, when I say that I cannot be bothered with 99% of the male population out there right now , I probably meant it.

I need this time to be on my own, and to allow changes to take place in my life.
HAHA, how serious can I get ?! (:

Im still gonna be Nury. Perhaps a lil better. For me. For the one who struck my nerve with his words.

2009-04-11T01:55:00.003+08:00

Nope , no more cryin' ok.

2009-04-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

thats for you.

2009-04-10T00:28:00.001+08:00

(cnt help but take this test from neh's blog)

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Words of Affirmation
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Words of Affirmation:		10
Acts of Service:		8
Quality Time:		8
Physical Touch:		2
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

2009-04-08T00:41:00.007+08:00

I wrote This for someone. ):

Alone I face the cold things you do
But your love helps me deal with you.

I want you back right now, today
This pain keeps growin' in every way
Its true we never rly had much
Yet its still you that I wanna touch

I really wanna let go, its been awhile
I locked up these feelings, hostile
Tryin to seek someone new, I cant seem to
Because everytime I do I start to think of you

I can't lay aside this agony
Again & again I play the same refrain
I still rummage thru our past in vain
I have became such a fool, its funny.

I feel dumb saying you are the one
Nothing ever happened, nothing ever begun
and although i know nothing lasts forever
I still dream of us being together

So are we gonna continue pretending
that everything's gone down the drain
just cos its easier not to be moved
Than moved to love, and be hurt again?

2009-04-06T23:50:00.001+08:00

Firstly, Alep's latest tag infuriated me. HAHAH,
No, I am still single.-..- Doh!
& You wanna tell my abang is it? You think i scared is it?!!
ehryu7246nabeyyy467534hetoot%^& ;p stupid boy.

Im really bored shit. Arghhhhz.
Anyhoos, to whoever it may concern ..
It's not that I no longer wanna hangout w my close friends or anth like that.
Buuut, I've been broke for the past week.
Hope ya'll understand, yup.
I have a feelin' that I'll be a lil richer nxt week.
You guys prolly wanna date me out then ;)

Top Date List ***
1) Beeps. been long since i last saw her.
2) Neh. Long siaaa this one.
3) Zee. Longer!
4) Farhad.
5) Troy, my 1st nehneh.
6) Iqbal ! ARGGGGHH. LONGEST.
7) Chwie. Donkey years, I even forgot her face.

GONNA TACKLE U GUYS WHEN I SET MY EYES ON YAAAA. :D

2009-04-06T03:03:00.007+08:00

Si Gong & his gong face (nak sgt aku tarok kan)

Lepak lagi today.
Took my handphone and snapped his own picsx and set his own face as my wallpaper.
Nah! Your gongest face is here!

P/S : My dearest Neh, be strong.
& Zul Lek! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?
MSG I LAAAA bodoh! 8-)

2009-04-05T00:51:00.004+08:00

Happppyy Birthday Adryan (5dayslate , sry) !
-No Pictures-
Jiejie upload next week okay? ( Jiejie or wudddd?! haha)

Kelly KawanLembu Nehneh, Be happy alright.
Time to take a breather, sayang.
For now, you can pretend that I have a Cock.
& babe, I guarantee my cock is only for you. forever la sia!

Feel better soon !

2009-04-04T01:14:00.004+08:00

This poem is dedicated to myself and anyone else who is brokenhearted / rejected / dumped.

Time To Move On

© By De'Alaundria D. Quitugua

Wishing you felt the same way,
Having to carry on each day,
Trying to accept your change of heart,
I never knew you'd tear mine apart,
I could satisfy your needs,
And help you reach your goals and dreams,
But just because I want us together,
Doesn’t mean ill wait forever,
I want you boy so very bad,
You'll be the love I never had,
I believe that we are meant to be,
But obviously you cannot see,
So I must maintain my pain and simply move on,
And face the fact that your feelings are gone

P/S : wtf

Nubel Strikes.

2009-04-03T02:10:00.015+08:00

Forget about it.
Forget us,
I'm so fkg tired figurin' you out.
" Ya man," I tell myself. "Move on."
Boo you shitoks. Have fun.

I enjoyed my day w Aizat Gong. Cute semacam.
Aizat & Izzat are 2 different ppl k Fie(:
For the first time, i watched 'kudakepang' kinda thing today. They call it 'menurun'. 0.0
(kelly, i will tell you what it is later)
I macam a noob watching it, with my jaws wide open. (swallowed a fly and 1293782 germs while i was at it)
one thing i must say about that 'menurun' thing, it is hella scary. or maybe im really just a noob.
is it syirik anyways??

P/S : i saw Atikah today at cwp. hahaha hello youre so pretty nw!

AND btw people. this is your fuckin hotstuff best friend's friendster link. DO VISIT & ADD YA!

*** http://profiles.friendster.com/51478588 ***

I never thought I could love anyone but myself.
Now I know I can't love anyone but you.
You make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.

Ingrid Michaelson

2009-04-02T02:33:00.014+08:00

I am absolutely fcukin tired, and idk why!
Goshz. Woke up at 3 yesterday.
Felt so frikin dumb today.
yeah people, I haven't got a school.
RP doesnt like me. Even if I scored 20. Wtf. Dumb.

Yadayada, imma drop the topic.
So anyhoo, last night, FOR THE 1ST TIME,
I went to admiralty park! hahaha i am so Noob that I didn't know it was so close to my place!
Wait, I dont even know it existed la.
So i walked thru the trail at abt 930 with a bunch of idiots livin' nearby.
Found an unstable, shaky bridge in the middle (of nowhere). And sat.
Saw a HUGE HUMONGOUS white bird gliding swiftly pass the pond. Started shuddering with Aizat.
But i gotta tell you man, that bridge has a grrrrrreat view of the sky( argh you should see the starssss).
IT IS SO ROMANTIC , despite the fact that the bridge could collapse anytime or there are possibilities of seeing ghosts there.
I shall not go on about the rest of the night.
Yawn* Imma go to bed.

P/S: I miss Beeps, Neh, B, & Chwie.
Ya boy, where have you been?

2009-03-31T02:56:00.009+08:00

ey there there ey ey ~
this is for danny , "HELLO (:, SORRYYYY EHHH FR EVRTH. thanks for bein so patient w me."

i had a gd time yesterday.
met mohd burnt(MB) at tamp, sry lambat ehhhh.
wahwah ader saiful & wan, yg i haf been chattin' with online previously.
theres this other weirdguy which idk his name and this sweet girl, Diyy (:
i am a total noob when it comes to card games, but I WASNT ALONE.
you know what?
MB is nice.
HE ALWAYS TRIES TO GIVE THAT PISSED FACE BUT HIS MOUTH WILL SAY OUT DUMB STUFFS KAN, GONG.
Good ahhh, member! ;D
and about whatever that you told me, haha dont worry.

den because of the stupid rain at Tamp (rain turns my straightened hair into curls tau)
i cabbed down to amk to meet Neh.
22bucks, jangan play play.
blahblahblah, so glad to see my girlfie.
boys in the world are trrrrrouble. ;p
girls aren't. thats why i'm here.

by 11, i was back in woodlands.
LEPAK again! Dontwant to go home!
ey Izzat, i'm so happy, you know? (:
merepek merepek macam mane pon, YOU ARE AWESOMO.

btw, is my face like ACTION KIA?
Fie stop calling me nubelkia.

2009-03-30T00:13:00.010+08:00

such trash attitude.
hey i don't owe you anything.
and you know what? i don't need to redeem myself any further.
you do not deserve the nice treatment that have been given to you.
i guess its time you feel some sense of loss, ya?

so , suck it yourself.
i dare defy you.

p/s: you do good to get good.

2009-03-29T01:05:00.010+08:00

Although some things(& people) in life kept letting me down- over and over again even as I am typing this, there's also some who never fail to make it all better.
For this, I know that I am blessed to have a friend like you.
I love you Beeps. Wholeheartedly.

2009-03-28T18:02:00.007+08:00

The chill in my veins
Relieves me from pain
Again & again
I lose all control
You're taking your toll
And I'm no longer sane

Don't be afraid
The love that I show is the love that you made
So don't be afraid
Cos you're in control
& I'm just your slave.

imy

2009-03-28T17:56:00.005+08:00

Haaaaaaapppppyyyyyy Nehneh-ing, I love ya .
You're one person I totally dig mannnn~

2009-03-26T21:48:00.009+08:00

I'm too sexy for my love too sexy for my love
Love's going to leave me.

shitoks, i'm feelin' rather unwell~
i went to JB again for awhile, earlier today.
Such a bad day cos' its frikin' sticky wetty hot out there.
SK, ive got your bubblegum.
Neh, ive got your bubblegum.
My dearest, i bought you a bubblegum.
but where are you? where's your call?
(i should so learn to be more patient)
awwww ):

& somehow, for some strange reason, i am searchin for all my ex-classmates' blogs.

p/s: *, i wanna be thick-skin & assume that i know
what youre feelin' , rofl .

And let's give it a try
Let's keep it for truth
Why do you want to fall to pieces?
Let's give it a try
Let's keep it for truth
And come clean all around me
And come clean all around me

Eisley

2009-03-25T00:54:00.011+08:00

Yupyup. I can't help but imagine being with you all day, all night. gagagaga.

p/s: thanks kelly. my blog so chio like you,

2009-03-23T00:39:00.005+08:00

its amazing how much things can change within 24hours.
losing many but in order to have that ONE (neh, dont laugh).
i really don't wanna go through it again. *insaf
met him ~ less annoying more loving. haha.
omg i syg you plenty.

i met neh too.
brief but also full of lovin' ey. hahahaha.
i swear i dont wanna sit at the steps w you like ahlians anymore.
& i dont wanna eat before bathing anymore.
& i sure dont wanna look at little girls holding big boys' hands anymore. (you know i know!)

question of the day: why can't one be everyone's friend ey?

2009-03-22T00:53:00.006+08:00

THANKS KELLY TAN FOR THIS NEW BLOGSKIN, I FEEL NEW ! OH MY SKIN IS SO SOFT ~ :D
Anyways, cant help but to cut and paste this post from the sample site link she passed to me:

Dear neh neh,

I really miss you.
You have a nice set of boobs ha ha.
You make me laugh a lot.
You should learn how to save up.
Someday I will fly to the stars and bring one back for you.
You + me = nehnehzxz foreberz.
If I see you now I'd scream and tell you about the number of meals I ate today.
I want to make a CUTE BOYS ONLY sign for you for you.
I would build a perfect man who'd take care of you just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be Dance by Lady Gaga.
We could talk about everything together some day under the stars.

Love, Kelly.
(P.S. I ate 7 whole meals today.)

NURY NU BEL NEHNEHPOK ♥ KELLY TAN QN NEHNEHPOK.

So anyhooooos , today , I .....
had profanities being hurled at me earlier in the day,
finally got to hear his* voice (made my heart soft fuck- i missed it so much),
had a long thought about our situation and sorted it out,
went to eat wit mom & bro (but left them early to have a good heart to heart),
went downtown to meet si muhd.adik since i cant meet neh,
wrestled with him abit cos he thinks that its funny to poke people's tummy,
wrestled with him somemore cos i got annoyed,
met Burnt (makan his leftover pizza hahahah thankyou very nice!),
learnt a new cute word : CATphrase (by burnt) ,
made a new cute word : Crossy ( " Yay , crossy the road ~" by me),
learnt that I AM BURNT'S MEMBER (do the peace fingers thing )
and finally
I wanna talk to aip soon after he finish MAMAM. (:

♥ shaiff.

2009-03-20T17:24:00.001+08:00

im wrong .
and im paying for my mistakes.
lesson learnt : honesty is the best policy .

sorry for the mess i put you thru. meddling with your heart and betraying you like this, it hurts i know. ive been thru this, i know the pain. I'm really in love w you. I can't find no other like you. all those times we talked on the phone and arguin over petty matters or just cos you/I kept silent, became a routine. i could live with a million of those arguments just so that i could be otp with you evry night evryday. and now, i dont even get a text from you. youre stubborn, it makes me adore you. rmb those times i gt so bingit-sendiri and serious when we were conversing was bcus i felt tt you dunno how much you mean to me. i felt tt you think im a joke since you were always laughing at me when i get mad. i wanted to feel like you take me seriously, i wanted that so bad like how much i wanted you. i grew to believe that youd be ard fr me evryday. i grew to need you to be by me every single day. i never loved you any less. i never did. you had been there thru my last rship, till the last day, it was you whom i talked to. it was you whom i turned to for advice. i needed to hear your say. it mattered to me. did you realise it then? i lied abt my status, but i didnt lie about my feelings. i jus want you to know how i really feel. i dont want you to feel tt this whole thing is a lie. i will leave, if you really want tt. but im not leaving you to think that i wasnt really for you.
evrything is hurting me now. everything. maybe its good to know that i got what i deserved best. this pain- twisting pain in my tummy as i typed this out- it hurts fucking bad. but i can only imagine how much more it hurts for you.
honestly, my ex hadnt done anyth wrong to deserve this, he just hadnt been there for me. things started off with u as my fren , nvr thought tt it would be end up with such overwhelming emotions. you can't control these feelings. who plans to fall in love anyways?
people tell me not to cry, not to beg and show that im weak. cus u wouldnt care less and it'll only hurt me more. but im not stopping myself from losing my pride. im not afraid to show that you are my weakness. im gonna wait. ive never waited. but im going to do it. for this one guy who mattered so much he could make me shed tears without shame and lose my pride, for all its worth. forgive me, even if you wanna leave me eventually.

2009-03-20T02:03:00.005+08:00

I'm crushed.
My feelings were true , just so you know.
Self-explanatory.

Ouh Neh! Thanks fr the post , it is so adorable.
Youre awesome .
I lubbbbb you girl! It was greeeeeaaaaat seeing you.

2009-03-18T22:54:00.003+08:00

you lucky boy-bitch. _l_

if i had seen you last night, i would have kicked your tralala.
gatal tak leh angs!

I hate cheeky monkey.

2009-03-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

Things I learnt today :

*Changi is fkg stinky (!),
Nicholas makes bad bbq parties,
the wind is a bitch,
cabbing from woodlands to lavender costs $17,
atiqah's corner is located at Beach Rd,
Burnt is lame (smile),
my sister thinks microwave ovens are called Microphones (cute huh),
**Hougang Central's 7-11 employs bloody bad staffs who doesn't scan items (so you get free stuffs!!!!! :D),
Siemens phones are sooooo legendary but I make em look sooo coolshit,
it is always good to pass motion everyday,
Teenvogue is a kinda dumb magazine,
and lastly I make a good Pontianak.

MISS LIST :

AIP & KELLY.

2009-03-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

I've been wondering the whole of today ,
what is actually running thru your mind ?
What do i have to do just so tt I can have your attention like before ?
Are you stressed?
I am, thinking abt you.
I'll give you time, sure I will.
But just so you know, I wanna have a piece of your mind too. ):

(I JUST HOPE ITS NOT ME. UGH)

2009-03-16T18:53:00.002+08:00

aip .

i da gile , groan .

2009-03-16T17:00:00.001+08:00

I'M WORRIED ABT DADDY.
Seriously worried.

Ape da jadi sey.

2009-03-15T23:59:00.001+08:00

Your highness left her handphone today in the bus.
Taxi uncle had to listen to her whining.
She arrived late.
But, she knows that this wonderful friend of hers will wait.
True enough, he waited for her, sooo patiently ( & claimed it was for about an hour)
Sorry Leon for the wait.
Youre the best!
Honestly, the bbq was kinda boring. But you and yer friends were entertaining as hell !:D
Thanks for helping me keep fit (and tearing my ass , UGH ) with the cycling.
This is my fave pic of his ( sexy ah like badboy hor hor hor ).
KELLY , YES OR NO ? HAHAHA.

BLAHBLAHBLAH,
I lost most of my contacts since I don't store em in my backup phone. ):
But I remembered one number.
Aip's.

Credits for that ? Kisses ? 8)

2009-03-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAYDEN JR.!

haha ! he celebrates his bday every month.
Cool or wad ! :D
Aip ! See , baby so cute kan? HAHA .

Anyhoos , today I learnt that :
YJC macam kampong (bleahhhhsszzxx sry ahting!),
Benjamin Goh really cant recognise me,
Lin has grown fatter because "my arms broke so I can't play soccer" ( LAME ),
fat girls are still beautiful,
C.C.B lost his match (so he is lousy- Boo!),
a bitch will always be a bitch (or they may evolve to a bigger Bitch),
my 'friend' evolved to a bigger bitch (you know who you are),
primary school kids are sexually active,
my brother is dumb in a hilarious way
& money makes children happy.

2009-03-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

Friday the 13th is soooo not suay !
Hung out w Aip Hayden ! Gahaha.

You claimed to love annoying me (and pushing+pinching+hitting me)
but IT'S OKAY ! I'm still cooooool ! :D
Syg you monkey boy sorang !
Btw, do rmb that besok is Hayden Jr. nyer birthday alright !

Hmm, my Cik Siti has been busy shopping for clothes .
"POLYTECHNIC CLOTHES", she calls it.
Ugh , *groan*.
My lucky little goddess. (:

Oh . And btw, my straightening iron cock la.
My hair no difference at all la dey .
Expensive konon ! Hisap !
" Straight from Beverly Hills " - my foot ! D:

2009-03-11T23:05:00.001+08:00

Met Leon today :D

I'm sorry I didn't join in the ice skating fun , scared lah !
But I'll do it some other time !
& No, youre not boring.
Thanks for the day ! (L)

See you on Sunday okay ! :D

2009-03-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

I didn't travel to Johor today .
& You dont wanna know why .
but, I will tell you anyways . 8)
IT'S COS I FORGOT TO BRING MY PASSPORT WITH ME !
Dumb enough ?
Makcik Siti said . " Argh ! Sayang, I'm being honest here. You are such an idiot."
Sorry la yang tak idiot, heh.

So, off I went to Makcik Siti Vogue Sexxxy Mama's sexy crib.
Being the fickle pickle cheeseburger that she is,
she tooookkk sooooo long to change before we can head to town together.
Amakkkk ahgerl.
I'm happy cos she's Happy (capital H) that her boobs got bigger cos she grew chubbier.
GAGAGA, CUBIT BARU TAWU ! Go on, Spot her boobies !

Ahhh yaaaa , I bought a brand new hair straightener at Wisma.
MAHAL EH , $130 !
But it was discounted from like 200plus. Staff discount !
The pretty lady gave it to me since tomorrow is gonna be her last day workin. I hope god leaves a chocolate under her pillow tonight as a reward for her kind and selfless gesture.
Tomorrow I'm gonna try the straightening iron (which is actually ceramic but nobody calls it straightening ceramic, duh!) and type a review about it ! 8)
YOU'RE EXCITED TO READ IT RIGHTTTTT ! Me too ! hahahaha!

Hayden means Nothing matters more.

2009-03-10T12:05:00.000+08:00

stepping out of the house ! haha .
okay , not .
but im goooooing to .
excitedszxxx.
lekas! sape nak ikot?! (i know im talking to myself)

Daddy lekas topup ! 8)

2009-03-10T08:00:00.000+08:00

Going Johor today,
Buy satay , makan and makanings.
Best pahhhhhh. 8)
Nak Join ?

2009-03-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

AIP

I'D DO IT.

2009-03-09T23:00:00.001+08:00

): ): ): My gma's ill .
and it has been making me feel sooo frikin down.
Harap2 dimaafkan kalo I'm like bitchy or something.

I just received this text - a friend's attempt to cheer me up :
As these endless thoughts drip from my soul. .
Every single word from you or every memory of you will never melt & burn . .
Whenever your eyes spills out tears of life's tragedies, do come back..
Becoz never forget that your smile composes a meaningful story to others . .
~faiifallsdown~

CHEHBAH, i dont quite get the link honestly but THANKS FAII ! :D
Appreciated tawwwwzzz.

Been busy the whole day , sorry for the unlayan-ed texts.
Okay , I'm done for today.
Before I forget, Kasman goes around asking if people sleep naked or not (joke).
And, HELLO LEON ! :D YOU MUST SAY HELLO BACK!

Oh.
Hayden -
its a name that symbolises everything to me.
Do you know that ?

2009-03-08T17:46:00.000+08:00

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

You were the jerk.
But, I'm never the heartbreaker.
It's just what you get for shitting me before.
Get over it. You might already start loving me now, but it's as good as never.
Goodbye for good, A.
If it makes you feel any better, then .. " I'm sorry. "

2009-03-08T16:36:00.001+08:00

YAYNEESSSSS ! My tags are back !

THIS RAWWWWKS !
I'M FINALLLLLY SEEING RAINBOWS !
Nak join? 8)

2009-03-08T16:32:00.002+08:00

(pardon me, but I happen to be rather minah-ish today.)

BODOH PUNYA TAGGED, AKU PUNYE TAGS YANG AKU SYG2 GILE BABS SEMUA HILANG TIBA2 SIOOOLL.
KANASAI CBXOXOKNN. * PISSED OFF.
Aku macam nak report police je . Ah, kan da start merepek !! >:(

Whatever lah,
C.C.B kesayanganku had to cancel our plans today just like yesterday.
ISH, Mintak kene spanking. tapi takpe! Family comes First! Good C.C.B!
*Thumbs up*
Aaaaall alone at home. On a Sunday. Uhhuh, wow.
I'm soooo going to Causeway to get a new hair straightener. Just so that I can feel better.

Anyways, I'm damn hyped for the painting of my room!
Pink and green . Ye la, pink is sooooo ewww . But this particular shade of pink is hot !
It's called .. The lollipop shade .
Uhh , ya , Sexy kan ? HAHA.
And the green is in .. Celery leaf shade . Lagi hot ! Wakaka !
I have gotten myself my own hi-fi set andddd cute lamps andddd noticeboard anddd photo frames ! 8) My dad is getting me a new lappy too , in RED !
Wooohoooo ! Macam gini tinggal KAWEN je (DA ADER CALON K) . Beh leh tgl dalam bilik 19 hari 19 malam ! Gagaga ! Just kidding.

Who wants to help me paint & doodle on my new wall ?

2009-03-07T16:28:00.000+08:00

LOOK !

THIS LOOKS LIKE MY HAYDEN!
SHO KIUUUUTTTSZZXX !

awrighhhtttt !

2009-02-25T19:04:00.000+08:00

Wooooohhh! I bit my sister's bum , thrice today.
Yessum. I made her cry , but it felt wonderful. B-)
Sigh. It's raining right now and my hands are all numb .
Feels like I'm in Alaska (imagination).
Ouh btw , speaking of Alaska , you do know that Alaska is lacking in women right ?
(Note : TV series, MEN IN TREES)
I remembered watching E.T. one night (looooong long ago) and they were featuring this program , 'Susie and the Alaskan men' I think , where Alaskan men searches for potential female partners who are willing to come to Alaska and marry 'em.
ANDDDD ... Guess what ? I felt some interest brewing inside of me. Lol - i know !

I know , I know. People think that Santa Claus lives in Alaska/ Alaska is in Antarctica /Alaska is NorthPole. Most would picture Alaskan men as :

Alamak this one. Kill animals den wear 'em as hats. >:(

These 2 looks like hollywood Alaskan men huh.

HOHOHO , we are the Claus' brothers!

Don't laugh ah. This one is a Native ok.

HAHA , look at 'em ! All beardy and santaclaus-y. Grufffff ! And Rufffff !
But, fuck the stereotype! Young alaskan men can still be quite hot.

SEE :

Ooops , wait. That one's kinda dorky. (Geek chic, HAHA)
LOOK AT THE NEXT ONE!

HOTTTT RIGHHHHHTTTT ? *GUSHES*
Macam The Bachelor ! I name him, Dan.
This one up next is not bad either.

Haha, he looks like some professor who researches on Dinosaur eggs. Now, THAT's hot. Haha.

There , the one at the most bottom right hand corner is CUTEZZZZ!

Singaporean single ladies who are looking for Angmoh hubbiesszzz, check 'em Alaskan guys out! I have reserved Dan for myself !
Do check out this webbie before finding an Alaskan man, to get yourself ready for the life out there. http://www.alaskaheritage.com

OH and I heard, they are soooo husband material. *winks
Susie Carter, the editor of Alaska Men (a male order catalogue , www.alaskamen.com) says that women are drawn to Alaskan men because: " A typical Alaskan is down to earth, homely and treats a women how she likes to be treated - like she is special."
AHHH SO , CATCH 'EM ALL ! ;D

hwdhsjj!

2009-02-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

im feeling fuck lonely.
cos it seems like everyone's not layaning me.
what the hell man. im not used to this, at all.

kar·ma

Hinduism & Buddhism The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.
Fate; destiny.
Informal A distinctive aura, atmosphere, or feeling: There's bad karma around the house today.

anyhoos, do you believe in karma kicking you right up your ass just cos you ever shit at someone else?

Cool kia.

2009-02-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

I finally have a blogspot.

I am officially a Kool person.